[atsonicpark]

Never had a cellphone, never will have one. Don't see the point, honestly, unless I'm going on a long road trip where they absolutely will not be phones anywhere on the highway. I only use Facebook now for email, mainly. I've hid nearly everyone's status except about 5 people, a few of which who post on here anyway!... Most people are so cold, distant, desesntized, impersonal, etc. now. That's the stupid grown up toy/cell phone "culture". I don't relate with anyone. I grew up with NOTHING so I've had to work hard; nearly all my peers have had everything handed to them, yet post every other day about how broke they are, how they're in debt big time, and it makes no sense to me. I can't relate with anyone, and if you have any success, anything going on for you, you're an "asshole" since you're not hanging out and getting drunk and acting like a retard... and wallowing in the same self-loathing feeling-sorry-for-yourself depressive little hole with all your cool buddies, who can only comprehend shitty 3 chord awful punk rock and automatically write off anything that they might have to listen to more than once, meanwhile insulting everyone else's tastes even though they're 32 and live at fuckng home and have nothing going on for themselves so they have to insult other people to feel good about their own shitty lives, thier fucking claim to fame being a fucking E WRESTLING CHAMPINO, stupid fucking prick. So many people only care about simple things that get in, do its simple easy-to-understand thing, and get out. Fuck anything "intellectual", fuck anything that might make someone actually ,y'know, think. THat might take a bit of work to fully comprehend and appreciate. These people only bother with things they can "get" immediately.. if not, they're usually the exact opposite, fucking elitist pricks who act like they're sooooooo smart... what the fuck? Why can't people just like what they like and stop worrying about their fucing "status", what their liking of something says about them as a person? Who gives a fuck? Why does just about everyone have the SAME EXACT TASTE? It's like, most people don't have a real opinion, or only say things that are contrary (for example, "OH, A BUNCH OF LAMEASS PEOPLE LIKE SLIPKNOT SO, THEY SUCK! EVEN THOUGH I'VE NEVER HEARD ANY OF THEIR SONGS!"). It's hard to find honest, cool people. My real life "best friend" can't return my fucking phone calls or emails because he's 24 and has never held a girl's hand so he's now reccomending movies he hates and pretends to like them to get the attention of some ugly ass stupid girl he needs the attention of to feel like less of a loser, even though his own family hates him because he's such a horrible son/nephew and won't even get ahold of them unless he needs money, and everyone makes fun of him for going to art school since he's a shitty artist, I have spent years doing so many wonderful amazing things for him and I was in the hospital recently and he hasn't even CALLED me to check and see how I'm doing because he's too busy making horrible paintings, fucking around on his iphone (which he has no reason to have, since he doesn't have any friends to call, except me, and he doesn't call me). People make me sick. He lives in some fucking pretend world. What a joke. I didn't put him in my latest movies or my latest albums and he bitches about them but I honestly asked him a thousand fucking times and he wouldn't even take 2 seconds to reply. I have a concert next Saturday and he always makes a big deal about how he loooooooooves to play live -- probably in the hopes that if he talks loud enough, a girl might accidentally hear him and think he's "kewl" even though the only thing he likes is shit I got him into and he only gets ahold of me when he is runnin' low on culture and entertainment, knowing I'm going to burn him a thousand cd's and dvd's to sustain his existence for anoter few months... but, hey, he won't even fucking get ahold of me despite LOVIN' TO PLAY LIVEEEEEEEEEE, cuz you know, he's so busy, he works at a library 10 hours a week making minimum wage nad sits on his ass, he's never had to work a day in his life, his aunt ran into me last week and just made fun of him and said how awful of a human being he is and how his MILLIONAIRE mom is going to be cutting him off really soon and how happy she was. His aunt actually told me that she wishes I was his nephew, which was fucking hilarious, but also sad! He's probably just waiting for me to die since I'm leaving all my movies to him.

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