PISSED
 

not as in drunk, as in extremely angry
my grandmother is in the hospital seriously ill with an infection of the intestines and i got a call basically begging me to come see her and i was just fucking here for their god damn anniversary party which was not particularly enjoyable.
i made them all throw down for the plane ticket. no way would i be paying for that shit.
how are YOU?

i'm doing quite well thanks. sorry bout that though

i have insomnia

well i'm going to go space out and then go to bed because i'm tired of this shit and i don't want to think about it.

oh man, that sucks, cantanky.

at least you vented a little here.

good idea...spacing out is great....oh i wish i could sleep.

Sorry to hear that.

yeh people dying is so inconvenient.

it does suck, but you should go. just don't stay longer than you have to. a quick show yr face job is what's called for. callous but true.

if i could, i'd give you a pat on the head and some chocolate chip cookies to cheer you up.

that sucks, I'm doing fine.

my grandfather is dying in the hospital right now.

I told my mother "don't expect me to come or you'll be disappointed".

that's how it's done!

Hope your grandma recovers.

if people are trelling you to come see her it is because she is near her end cantank. don't be bitter about it, just go and pay your respects to the woman without whom you would not be born.

and eat somethin'!

i don't think she's gonna kick the bucket, but she's lost like 40 lbs because of some kind of intestinal infection and they can't figure out what it is exactly so they've been doing examinations and tests and all that business. she was in isolation for a while.

I wish I could have got to know my dead grandparents better, but I don't talk to my living ones enough anyway so I dunno.

I think it's best to just be yourself, if you're bored or annoyed try to find who else feels the same way, try to talk to your grandma about it. Be like "Grandma I sure do love you but this whole family deal bugs me. I'm sorry. I hope you feel better."

Try to talk honestly with her? Try to figure out what you'd really like to get out of the occasion.

I might be making assumptions here. Sorry if this is way off mark. Your grandma should know your concerned at the very least though. Even if you're not.

well it's not like i want her to die. she's pretty seriously ill but her health has never been too good because she drinks like a gallon of diet soda a day which has caused her to have to have a double hip replacement and one knee replaced, she has terrible rheumatoid arthritis etc (as does my other grandmother, so i'm pretty fucked there.)

oh and to top it all off now i'm sick. fucking nose/throat infection or something. can't breathe through my nose, thick green SPUTUM (grossest word ever save for moist) throat hurts etc.

Imagine how lonely it must feel to be sick and old. Go and provide a few moments of comfort, especially since your way is paid for.

wow that's stone fucking cold! why won't the old bat die already & stop inconveniencing everyone? you know, you could smother her with a pillow & get it over with these damn trips. i bet you could even turn her into some nice jerky. you know, for the trip back.

and i'm great, thanks.

you smartass.
i just think it's bullshit because we don't have a close relationship at all and i was just here for HER party and while she is ill, she is not dying.

she's not even old, she's 60! why they would want me there is baffling; i have problems of my own that i need to take care of, i had to take off work spontaneously because of this, i don't care if they paid.

That is kind of odd. Sounds like they're being a bit manipulative with you.

I have family like that, too. When I first moved back to the same area where my dad lives, he expected me to call him and let him know whenever I was going out of town for the weekend or on vacation. This was when I was like 36. He'd get seriously pissed if we took off for Chicago or Minneapolis for the day without letting him know: "What if something happened here, or to you guys on the road?"

I'm actually glad I now live 1,000 miles away.

they are being manipulative. i really don't know what they think they're gonna get out of me because the answer is jack shit.



i would, but he's in ny.

i did go shopping with my cousin and bought a nice pair of shoes.

WHAT ABOUT ME!!!!

You big baby.

who's a baby? me?

Yes you, you big baby.

i must be aging well.

Why, are you a short-ass?

Don't forget the stockings then.

Do you dance alone at home as well? I can't get enough. I'm jiving in between posts today.

get some beatle boots

i was groooovin for a while and then i decided to download some shit so i can grooooove some more

funky fresh!

i just realized that maybe they just made you go home so they could feed you.

i don't have that kind of family.

oh. so sorry.

*hugs*

well my grandma did said my legs looked like they were about to snap in half when i visited her the other day but that's about it.

shit, no wonder you don't get along.

my grandmothers used to cook for about 10 people every day. fun times.

anyway, we're going to be in new york in september-- maybe we can bring you some provisions?

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oh, it's september already. sweet.

patty cake patty cake bakers man
make me a cake as fast as you can!

eh! enough with he sugar! you need a spanish tortilla loaded with veggies, on some fresh bread, smothered in olive oil, and sprinkled with sea salt.

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i made one with sardines the other day. the pleasure! the pleasure!

now i want a taco you bastard
looks like i just figured out whats for dinner. i'm going to nachomamas!

dinner? i haven't even had lunch yet. but good for you! get some cash from the parental units & enjoy. food is life, bitch. live a little.

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ps- i made the most magnificent pesto yesterday. going for a 2nd round tonight. i decided to eat it with some rigatoni, so the little holes get stuffed w/ extra deliciousness. hmmm.... pesto...