Slowdive's drummer has suffered a back injury that's stopped them from travelling to Australia at the last minute...they've postponed headline shows in Adelaide, Perth, and Sydney, but cancelled their festival performances in Melbourne, Sydney, and Brisbane.

I was meant to see them tomorrow...

that's a pity.


looks like this forum is broke again ...
let's see if it can be fixed

test test test test test

forum is broke again
I can see this post, but not my previous which was in reply to Claire's which is also invisible :confused::confused:




ah there we go, we've got a new page.

furreals?

yup
probably because it's an old thread that didn't have a new post for a while

My new job told me I can't work until after Mother's Day and money is really tight in my household right now and I'm starting college and I have so much trauma to sort out so yeah I have a big pile of shit in front of me!

Small beans compared to some of the issues discussed here, but:


Putting a lot of time, effort and heart into things that ultimately die on the vine. It's been just a bit too much of a pattern as of late.

what happened?

if it's art related, read nassim taleb about living in the antechamber of hope

it's tough...

Mostly art-related, also event-related. It's hard to reach people without aggressively directing attention to everything sometimes, and that is something so antithetical to anything I stand for. I try to adjust my expectations. But that doesn't always make it easier.


And there are things I've been actively working on for a while that, for one reason or another, seem to be stuck in constant limbo.


For instance, I've been trying to form a band with a great friend of mine for about five years now. We have an EP's worth of song concepts by now, but there are always issues with finding other people who will stick around and practice with us regularly or that are a good fit. The situation with prospective drummers has been particularly comical. I get this whole running joke in This Is Spinal Tap so much more now. They constantly spontaneously combust (well, not literally, but they bail out soon, are in too many other projects, have a tough time dealing with the concept that yes, we are a band with vocals, because we play songs, songs that we wrote, with LYRICS, novel concept!).


So, mainly just bitching about things. But in general, I feel like there's less of a platform for certain things than there used to be before. And it's noticeable.

Thanks for the recommendation. Will read into it. And thanks for lending an ear to those ramblings :D

yeah, it's not a "happy" text, but it's not pessimistic either, it just describes the result of network effects in art/literature/music and other markets. from that understanding at least you have a ground from which to get a hold of something.

it also can change your attitude towards the probabilistic nature of things, as opposed to the deterministic one we are taught to believe is the case.

in a way it relates to this as well...

https://youtu.be/36L9cYkHyZM

except taleb talks about math and rubin talks about woo

i believe the math, hahahahaaaa...

I have so much trauma to unpack holy fuck what do i do I hate it here and am tired of life!!!:fuckyou: :fuckyou: :fuckyou: :fuckyou:

I got called 'fat' even though I'm not fat. I'm 5'7'' and weigh 117 lbs, so my BMI is 18.3. I think I'm thin but most people think I look average-sized and healthy rather than skinny and that worries me so I'm starting a diet. I feel conflicted. I want to weigh 100 lbs but I don't want to have a heart attack or some shit as a consequence (I'm a cigarette smoker and exercise a LOT).

You should stop worrying about trivial shit. And try the beer diet. You will not regret a thing

I'm finding that the only good thing in my life rn is oui'd

My really good friend Chris died of lymphoma 2 days ago. This is a gut punch I did not need, but here I am.

That's horrendous. I'm sorry for your loss

My condolences, losing someone suddenly can just upend so much

Wish you solace in this time

My deepest condolences, Misty. :(

goddamn

so sorry :(