living in salt lake city, utah for 9 years.

I'm a total mess because of it.

on the bright side, how many of you can say that you formed yr own terrorist-cell at 13?

Holding in a fart ranks up there.

my dad slowly dying over the course of three years with cancer raging all through his body, ending up a whithered skeleton of a human, about 80 lbs. this was 1991.

we are alike then.

Yes, we are. My mom only took about 6 months to die. I found it a blessing. She hurt so bad....I just wanted her to not hurt. Cancer is brutal man. Sometimes I think it is just as hard on us as it is for them. All apologies

yep.

you guys probably already know anyway.

Having a brain tumor

Reading this thread.

my uncle dying an an accident with a small plane
my grandfather dying of liver cancer
my grandmother dying of ovarian cancer
my aunt dying of leukemia
my other uncle killing himself
my dad telling me he had two children with another woman (my parents divorced because of this when i was nine but he only told me when i was fifteen, my mother had pressured him into it because she would tell us her version if he waited any longer)
my stepdad getting encefalitis and being at risk for severe brain damage for a month.

life's a bitch. Makes me sick when people who have never had anything bad happen to them bemoan their existance. I'm all like, "go kill yrself then you worthless fuck."

exactly. i noticed that people who have been through quite some shit are usually very optimistic and happy, while people who have had a quiet life are some of the most whin people on earth.

of course, there are always exceptions.

i sometimes feel like the death of so many close family members in such short time has made me more aware of the fact that life can be over any minute, and that i shouldn't waste time moaning about stuff i can't fix or paining my head over questions i can't solve.

Well I've had about 7 (maybe more) surgeries all before the age of 9. Those were all pretty painful and have caused a lot of emotional problems.

Right now, seeing Trouble suffering is extremely hard.

My episode of depression in college, which itself was the expression of a number of terrible things.

Worst thing happened to me? I was born, born under a bad sign. Ever since I was born, I ain't had no luck at all.

but you do have fancy clothes.

probably when it was confirmed that i had gone completely deaf in one of my ears. & that such a hearing loss is irreversible. waking up from my second replacement eardrum surgery in the most horrible pain and hearing the nurses gossiping to each other about how they should ignore my requests for more morphine because of my history of psychological problems (and then reading them to each other out loud). realizing that my hearing aid reduces sound quality and makes everything seem robotic. knowing that there is a chance that i'll loose all my hearing in the future.

nurses make or break a hospital experience.

it's unfortunate that so many are desensitized by human emotion once they clock in.

these types of threads always make me feel like whining less.


too many nurses these days are stupid stupid creatures lured into 2 year programs by promises of hot doctors and easy money. oh, and pills.

have i got horror stories about nurses.

this is the worst one:

my mom was hospitalized on and off for the majority of my life and once while she was staying at the U of M medical center they put tape on her feet that gave her an allergic reaction.

strike 1:

even though the reaction was noticabley getting worse and my mom and family were verbally complaining on a daily basis that something should be done, they left the tape on.

strike 2:

a nurse with manicured nails

strike 3:

pulled off this gigantic blister that had accumulated on my moms foot with out washing her hands or putting on gloves or ANYTHING.

and it ended up getting so infected you could see my moms tendons when it wasn't bandaged up. it was REAL nasty. they gave her a skin transplant for it (it was the first skin transplant EVER to hold on a wound that went so deep) but for a while they were talking about amputating her foot.

WTF.