right but FLINT and FELLINI

why nobody understands me?

It’s bizarre when you conclude that nothing matters in life, and therefore everything matters. You realize that despite your tendencies to be self-loathing, that you’re simultaneously a pretentious prick who thinks they’re better than everyone else. You can preach your leftist SJW viewpoints all day, and you truly love people more than they’ll ever realize, but you know that deep down humanity is vile and in serious need of a breath mint. Suddenly you notice that you don’t actually have any opinions whatsoever. “I no longer think, therefore I’m not,” you smirk like some toddler who just crafted a mud pie out of their own feces. But no, fill up your thermos with coffee, get in your car, and pretend as though anything in life has ever interested you apart from your dog, women, and that bootleg copy of season 3 of Everybody Loves Raymond you cherish so much, you faux intellectual man-child, you.

OK, lemme just add, coke comedowns are horrible, so don't take this temporary state as truth, cuz it ain't

take a hot bath, get some rest, eat well. you'll feel better tomorrow.

Yeah...

I'm gonna get some food in my belly

I'm so tired all the time and life is constantly pulling me in a million directions at once. I just wanna relax fish darnit

At least I have a nice lady friend rn

Seems to think I'm the bees knees. Let's see if she can handle my crazy

Just someone to tame me, and like help clean. Literally all I want

wait... no ashiatsu?



gotta get some ashiatsu :D

i prefer footjobs

I cried in front of my father yesterday

Hadn't cried in three years

Forgot I could do that

He advised me to seek counseling

ah, frank barone

did he make you?

We had a heart to heart about my mom

He cried a little too

ah, ok. well, yes. fuck! it's a tough situation.

This is how I feel...like a lot of the time. Hence why I am so emotionally unavailable and conflicted all the damn time. Anyway...long nature walks help. A lot. All you need in life is a beautiful place to talk walks imo.

ps i feel like a moron saying that

“it’s a tough situation”

no shit sherlock

what i meant to convey was that i understand and sympathize...

ok

symbols, dont sweat a thing. i knew what you meant lol

i got this girl now though, taking my mind off everything, and my god is it blissful. i can suddenyl relax and think clearly. literally cant leave eachother alone. she made me breakfast today, some fancy ass shit. eggs with spinach and rosemary etc., bought me some truffle-based hot sauce and is trying to get me KoRn-branded coffee apparently. just having someone like care about me, im not used to getting pampered or fancy shit. its just like wow man.

she called me her "nu-metal daddy" lmfao, and i taught her how to put a computer together.

yup. i knew i wasn't just ranting like a coke fiend lmfao

ha ha ha. great!

so my guess is your mobo is up and running now huh?